I started to write this book a very long time ago, when the disease was actively oppressing me. I wanted very much to be heard, even more to be understood. The brand of madness frightened the brightest minds more than anything else. And undoubtedly, I would have to stay within the borders of this gloomy country, if there was no such wonderful person who showed me the way of hard labor and diligence, by which one can become strong and overcome the horrors of madness.